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Welcome to Belovedgems, a blog about building a bridge between faith and mental health. The author rooted in her faith , her old-soul leads her into adventures to seek spreading hope into the world through a couple of written words. with it!

It is no secret that I suffer from anxiety.  There are times that is very well under control and other times when I am having attacks that make me vomit.  I have decided to be open about my anxiety a while back because I discovered that many people were suffering in silence with it too.  Most important I want to give God all the glory on how I deal with it.  I have written about it before here, here and here (look bottom sidebar for more posts).

I also work in the mental health field and currently in school pursuing a masters degree in the field.  This past week as I was reviewing the DMS-5 (a huge book filled with diagnosis criteria that therapist utilized) I was specifically reading on anxiety disorder.  It was no surprise to me that I recognize some of the symptoms because I have experienced them. But I was in shock when I kept reading "intense fear and anxiety".  Those two words alone were enough to ironically give me fear and anxiety.  I thought to myself, how is it possible that being a daughter of God I fit the criteria so well.  That is when I realized that I had to hold captive of that thought, that doubt that was about to trigger anxiety.

"We break down every thought and proud thing that puts itself up against the wisdom of God.  We take hold of every thoughts and make it obey Christ." 
2 Corinthians 10:5 (NLV)
We must first be aware of our thought patterns.  Are you someone who thinks negatively about yourself?  Are you someone who always is anticipating the worse outcome to a situation (that is me) instead of the best one?  Be aware of your thoughts. Know what triggers your anxiety.  Keep a journal of the times you get anxiety.  Write down what happened through out the day or what happened before the anxiety began (triggers, activities, news, social media feeds, conversations etc.) and record your thoughts.  You will eventually see a pattern.  For example, I have realized that my anxiety gets triggered when I realized things get out of my control.  Like a love one dying all of a sudden, or an illness in my family.  I also get triggered when the enemy lies to me and begins feeding my mind with thoughts that I might fail on something.  I have become aware of my thoughts and I have become aware of the lies of the enemy.  I can now recognize which thoughts are my own and which aren't.  Which takes me to the next step.

Destroy. Another version of the same verse. "We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God."  2 Corinthians 10:5 (ESV).  The thoughts that cause the anxiety will also go against the knowledge of God, in other words the word of God.  Know your scripture!  We must study the word of God.  Because the days when we need it the most are the days that we will remember what God says about us!

These are the verses I personally repeat to myself when my anxiety is getting the best of me:

These three verses I have engraved them in my heart, in other words, I know them by memory.  I repeat them over and over until I destroy the lies in my mind.  Read the word of God and engraved it into your heart.

I also pray and worship.  I can't really expressed in words what worship does to me.  I cant only say that when I worship I know it does not change God, it changes me.  There are times when my anxiety is so high that I can't concentrate on praying.  Instead I text someone to pray for me and meanwhile I worship.  There are specific songs that bring me into the presence of God and heal my soul. 

It has taken me some time to learn how to deal with my anxiety.  I have never taken medication for it, I have always dealt with it with God.  I have met many others who have it but not have take initiative to work it out.  They do not change their habits, ease up their schedule or fight on their knees.  

I want to remind you that you do not have to live like this.  You have a choice.  I have dealt with it, I know how it feels to feel like you are drowning and there is no way up to the shore. I have had many sleepless nights filled with worry.  I have had those attacks where I vomit and fill like I can't breath.  

But Christ has set me free even though I believe I still get anxiety when I stop trusting God and try regain control again.  But, it is okay, because this is how Christ keeps me close to Him and there is no better place to be embrace by Him.  He is my peace.

If you are experiencing anxiety feel to contact me for prayer.  Let's deal with it!

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